by Malena Bertrand, Age 12, Spain
What is writing?
Writing is a medium of human communication that represents language and emotion through the inscription or recording of signs and symbols. That’s what Wikipedia says, but for aspiring writers, writing has its own private definition. It’s a way of expressing ourselves without limits in a way we wouldn’t be able to if we were speaking. It becomes a shelter of words, it helps us forget when we have had a bad day. Nothing else seems to exist. We are transported to breath-taking worlds we don’t want to leave, each of them unique and perfect.
But not everything is smooth when it comes to writing. Even proper writers face challenges. There can be writer’s block, lack of ideas, and productivity problems. Anyone who writes faces these challenges. Including me.
Writing got to be a great struggle in 2015. The words didn’t come out, and, no matter how hard I tried, they simply didn’t sound right. Other times it was the story that didn’t work. Sometimes it even felt as if it was homework, and I had the chore of writing instead of doing it for fun. But then something changed:
Last year, I realized I had talent when it came to writing, and I didn’t want to waste it.
I loved reading the diverse and mind-blowing worlds so many authors had created, and I also wanted to create such worlds and characters of my own. So I set myself an objective: I would write a book. I also created a working plan, which was essential: I would write two pages per day.
This meant that I not only considered the idea of being a writer, but that I was taking steps to make it real. So I wrote two pages per day. I didn’t worry if it was right or not. I simply jotted everything down. It was hard at the beginning but eventually it became easier.
Now I write much more, and I enjoy it immensely. I have greater confidence when I write, and I simply do it instead of worrying if it’s perfect. This lets me participate in new things that I would have ignored before. For 2016, I plan on completing my book by August, participating in contests and hopefully getting published online. I hope this will continue bringing more practice and learning, strengthening my confidence, and will keep me focused on writing.
But what if this doesn’t happen? What if I am not a good enough writer?
This is something which still burdens me. But I am trying to learn that to keep evolving as a writer I need to confront my doubts which can only be done by decidedly writing. For that I need to be committed and not back down when my head starts speculating. Nowadays, I force myself to remember what writing means to me and how it makes me feel. Writing is a shelter of words that gets stronger every time I write. It has become a part of me. And that’s something I am not willing to give up.
This personal essay was the winner of an LTC Insider Plus+ weekly writing challenge.